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Wrote on 07 Aug 2007 by Diamond
Left away?
Mood: Tired- Confused
Song: Twins ?
Eating: Burnt Marshmallows
Yeah okay. I just don't know how to start this post. I just really feel useless today.. Not today but in general. I just wonder if I'm the only one who feels this way. This is the story:
Each time that someone leave me away, or just do something else, not including me. I just feel really useless... Not useless, but hey? I don't want to be left away. Com'on. I'm not like a freaking teddy bear ! I hate being left awat, just as if my presences wasn't really worth it.
I usually don't want to start a fight, but I keep taking this voice, like : Uhm no !
Harh, I just can't really explain you what is happening because It will PROBABLY start a fight.
Games are not worth to leave me behind.
That's it.
[Edit] Uhm. Sorry for that short post, I just felt like writing what I just felt. But let me explain what I meant in my previous Paragraph. Sometimes, I just feel like I wasn't really loved as I though. Maybe, I'm crazy, but I just can't be alone for a too long time.
As I said, I can't be alone for a too long time, which means, I NEED to be talking, chatting, being with someone, or else I just feel REALLLLY lonely and I get into this kind of weird depression. I definitly can't live alone.
I just really felt bad, sad, and lonely when for like 4 hours I was waiting for my boyfriend to log on, and it never happens.
I know, he has his own life, I shouldn't be so dependant. But I had my reasons:
One of my friend made a really bad taste' joke. I asked him:
Me: Hey where's Jo? Is he at your house?
Him: Nope
Me: Uhm He must be at his Friend D**.
Him: Nope
Me: Wtf?
Him: He's at the hospital. He got hit by a car when he was biking
Me: WHHHHHAAAt????????
*Starts crying*
2 minutes after
Him: It' s a joke!
Even he told me it was a joke, I HAD to talk to him, because I was extremly sad, in my head, for two minutes, he was dead. I so cried, even if he told me it was a joke, I was still crying :(. Rah!
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[Edit 2]
I just came back from my History exam. It wasn't that hard D: Fiou!. [/edit]
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Song: Twins ?
Eating: Burnt Marshmallows
Yeah okay. I just don't know how to start this post. I just really feel useless today.. Not today but in general. I just wonder if I'm the only one who feels this way. This is the story:Each time that someone leave me away, or just do something else, not including me. I just feel really useless... Not useless, but hey? I don't want to be left away. Com'on. I'm not like a freaking teddy bear ! I hate being left awat, just as if my presences wasn't really worth it.
I usually don't want to start a fight, but I keep taking this voice, like : Uhm no !
Harh, I just can't really explain you what is happening because It will PROBABLY start a fight.
Games are not worth to leave me behind.
That's it.
[Edit] Uhm. Sorry for that short post, I just felt like writing what I just felt. But let me explain what I meant in my previous Paragraph. Sometimes, I just feel like I wasn't really loved as I though. Maybe, I'm crazy, but I just can't be alone for a too long time.
As I said, I can't be alone for a too long time, which means, I NEED to be talking, chatting, being with someone, or else I just feel REALLLLY lonely and I get into this kind of weird depression. I definitly can't live alone.
I just really felt bad, sad, and lonely when for like 4 hours I was waiting for my boyfriend to log on, and it never happens.
I know, he has his own life, I shouldn't be so dependant. But I had my reasons:
One of my friend made a really bad taste' joke. I asked him:
Me: Hey where's Jo? Is he at your house?
Him: Nope
Me: Uhm He must be at his Friend D**.
Him: Nope
Me: Wtf?
Him: He's at the hospital. He got hit by a car when he was biking
Me: WHHHHHAAAt????????
*Starts crying*
2 minutes after
Him: It' s a joke!
Even he told me it was a joke, I HAD to talk to him, because I was extremly sad, in my head, for two minutes, he was dead. I so cried, even if he told me it was a joke, I was still crying :(. Rah!
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[Edit 2]
I just came back from my History exam. It wasn't that hard D: Fiou!. [/edit]
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Wrote on 17 Jun 2007 by Diamond
Eternity?
Mood: Tired D:
Song: Energy 32 - Cal'mar
Homework: Nope! Done!
Drinking: Nothing at all
Eating: Nothing :( and I wished I could eat something now XD I'm so hungry!
Woah I'm on my Dad's computer, and it's so weird because it looks so HIGHTECH. Lol I can't even here me hitting the buttons on my keyboard O...o That's why I'm kinda stressed to make some errors. Lold. ANYWAYS. It's been a while since I came here no? Sorry for that, I was REALLY BUSY. And tired... Yeah well -.- I was tired because it is not fun as it was a year ago. You know, when I had like 15 Blog buddies commenting on my blog? Now I don't even have one -.-! I feel so loneellllyyyy. XD I might just try to find new blog buddies, because I just lost contact with the others D:.
OMG Well I can't write a huge paragraph my dad is back !
Song: Energy 32 - Cal'mar
Homework: Nope! Done!
Drinking: Nothing at all
Eating: Nothing :( and I wished I could eat something now XD I'm so hungry!
Woah I'm on my Dad's computer, and it's so weird because it looks so HIGHTECH. Lol I can't even here me hitting the buttons on my keyboard O...o That's why I'm kinda stressed to make some errors. Lold. ANYWAYS. It's been a while since I came here no? Sorry for that, I was REALLY BUSY. And tired... Yeah well -.- I was tired because it is not fun as it was a year ago. You know, when I had like 15 Blog buddies commenting on my blog? Now I don't even have one -.-! I feel so loneellllyyyy. XD I might just try to find new blog buddies, because I just lost contact with the others D:.OMG Well I can't write a huge paragraph my dad is back !
Wrote on 16 Jun 2007 by Diamond
Maow.
Mood: TIREDDDD DX
Song: Gros Zero - Yelo Melo
Time: 22:01
haa =.= My hand is SO tired right now. i've been doing art trade since two days. Only for Gaian's Gold :P i'm so nerdy. Haaaa. =.= I have to go back to my art.
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Song: Gros Zero - Yelo Melo
Time: 22:01
haa =.= My hand is SO tired right now. i've been doing art trade since two days. Only for Gaian's Gold :P i'm so nerdy. Haaaa. =.= I have to go back to my art.Avatar from:
Wrote on 17 May 2007 by Diamond
D: Shit. I'm forced now?
Mood: Love-Sad-Mad-Tired-Happy.... Wow.
Song: Not Gonna get Us - Tatu
Time: 20:06
Erhh. I don't know why I'm so confused. Well I do know why. Sometimes I just feel like breaking the rules, showing who am I really, giving my last breath on something that is itching me.. really deep inside. I feel like I could just put all my soul on this action. But it would result on a undesired consequence. Rules totally suck. I wonder why, sometimes, if stuff like School, Money, Work is really necessary. Is it really?
It might be, because without school, there is no work ... No money = Death. Everything is so complicated. Life is complicated. Everybody is complicated. Why is it so complicated? Why can't it be simplier? Just Jo and I. Every couple should have his own planet. Each soul should have his own planet. And each soul meets someone to be loved and to love. Creating their own planet. Living there... Lonely but peacely.
Peace... What is peace? Peace is a Fallacy. Nothing more untrue than peace. No one is in peace. No one can be in peace. There is always something. Someone who's there just to hurt you.
Why hurting? Hurting .. I wonder why are we hurting. Why am I hurting.
Why am I hurt.
Why do we have feelings. Why do we love. Why do we hate. Could it just never happened. Who invented love. I wish I could just kill him. Or her?. For inventing such a beautiful feeling that makes other people JEALOUS.
Jealous... Jealous of love. Which engeders hate. Hating .. Hurting. Loving?
I hate haters.
I would then hate me?
I would then hate everybody?
I would hate love?
I would hate my love?
Why would I hate the one that created in me a new one. A new girl. A girl who smiles. A girl who laughs. A girl who enjoys.
I wouldn't kill the one who created love.
Because no one created LOVE. Love doesn't exist. love does. I am the one who created love in my heart. He is the one who created love in his heart.
But love has his own poison. Love kills
Love heals
Love hurts
Love makes you laugh
Love sex you
Love kills you
Love recreates you.
You are addicted to love. I am addicted to love.
I wonder why I am. I am addicted to love because I'm scared to his poison. Because I know without my love, my Amour, My angel, Mon amour... I would just fall into this Horror of hates. Of cries.
Sadness ? Is it worst than hates? Sometimes I wonder. Would anyone prefer to be sad than being hated?
I am sad.
I am hated.
Who can escape it? Everybody is hated. Everybody is sad. Everybody is loved.
But we passed all this suffering for one day give it up and die?
What is the purpose of living then? Living to be hated? To be sad, to be in love, to be working, to be studying, to be judged...
Wow.
Hopefully I am blinded by love who is now currently healing me.
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Song: Not Gonna get Us - Tatu
Time: 20:06
Erhh. I don't know why I'm so confused. Well I do know why. Sometimes I just feel like breaking the rules, showing who am I really, giving my last breath on something that is itching me.. really deep inside. I feel like I could just put all my soul on this action. But it would result on a undesired consequence. Rules totally suck. I wonder why, sometimes, if stuff like School, Money, Work is really necessary. Is it really?It might be, because without school, there is no work ... No money = Death. Everything is so complicated. Life is complicated. Everybody is complicated. Why is it so complicated? Why can't it be simplier? Just Jo and I. Every couple should have his own planet. Each soul should have his own planet. And each soul meets someone to be loved and to love. Creating their own planet. Living there... Lonely but peacely.
Peace... What is peace? Peace is a Fallacy. Nothing more untrue than peace. No one is in peace. No one can be in peace. There is always something. Someone who's there just to hurt you.
Why hurting? Hurting .. I wonder why are we hurting. Why am I hurting.
Why am I hurt.
Why do we have feelings. Why do we love. Why do we hate. Could it just never happened. Who invented love. I wish I could just kill him. Or her?. For inventing such a beautiful feeling that makes other people JEALOUS.
Jealous... Jealous of love. Which engeders hate. Hating .. Hurting. Loving?
I hate haters.
I would then hate me?
I would then hate everybody?
I would hate love?
I would hate my love?
Why would I hate the one that created in me a new one. A new girl. A girl who smiles. A girl who laughs. A girl who enjoys.
I wouldn't kill the one who created love.
Because no one created LOVE. Love doesn't exist. love does. I am the one who created love in my heart. He is the one who created love in his heart.
But love has his own poison. Love kills
Love heals
Love hurts
Love makes you laugh
Love sex you
Love kills you
Love recreates you.
You are addicted to love. I am addicted to love.
I wonder why I am. I am addicted to love because I'm scared to his poison. Because I know without my love, my Amour, My angel, Mon amour... I would just fall into this Horror of hates. Of cries.
Sadness ? Is it worst than hates? Sometimes I wonder. Would anyone prefer to be sad than being hated?
I am sad.
I am hated.
Who can escape it? Everybody is hated. Everybody is sad. Everybody is loved.
But we passed all this suffering for one day give it up and die?
What is the purpose of living then? Living to be hated? To be sad, to be in love, to be working, to be studying, to be judged...
Wow.
Hopefully I am blinded by love who is now currently healing me.
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Wrote on 14 May 2007 by Diamond
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